Miscarriage #2

Here I am again. Same place I was in June. I HATE THIS! What is wrong with me?!?! Last night I passed the fetus and some tissue. I went to the ER, and the doctor went into my uterus to remove more tissue. It hurt like hell! Hopefully I won't be needing a d&c. 10 Weeks. Just like in June. I can never get past 10 Weeks. This sucks so badly. Ever since I was a little girl, all I dreamt about was having a family and having kids. I guess that will never happen. I feel like I am being punished, that God hates me for some reason. I feel like such a failure. Why does my body hate me? What am I doing wrong? Why do so many people get to have their happy ending while I sit in the shadows hoping to have what they have? It's just not fair. It hurts so much to go through this time and time again. I don't know what to do anymore...