ER Visit #2

What a crazy night...again! B thinks I am pregnant with the devil's child. I had to go to the ER again last night because of bleeding and passing of tissue. We truly thought it was the end. We were crying in bed wondering, "why us?" My last miscarriage I passed alot of tissue so I assumed this was the beginning of a miscarriage. Got to the ER around 1:20Am. Got a pelvic exam, and the doctor told me my cervix was closed tight. I looked at him thinking, "Really?" There was alot of blood and some tissue on the forceps, so I assumed that my cervix hadn't opened up yet to pass the baby.
Finally got the ultrasound. I refused to look at the screen. The heart beat was found immediately, and the little bean was moving around so much that the tech had a hard time getting measurements. She could barely get an accurate reading of the heart because the baby was moving around so much. I have an active little bean inside me! B thought the baby was laughing and making fun of us. Already putting us through so much stress before its birth.
Of course the bleeding has stopped...again. I don't think I will ever relax with this pregnancy if it continues to go the way it has. I am coming up on 10 weeks, and that is the point where I lost the last baby. I just have to tell myself to relax (easier said than done), and start to enjoy the pregnancy. Things are out of my hands, and everything will be just fine. This baby is grounded until it is 18!!