And now we wait...

I know good things come to those who wait. You must be patient and in time will get what you ask for. I am tired of waiting!! I had my appointment with my hematologist today. It took more time travelling to his office than it did for the entire appointment! He basically told me that a deficiency in Protein S is hereditary, and that my deficiency could have been caused from the miscarriage. Because I do not suffer from blood clotting issues, it is most likely that I do not have a deficiency. I have to retake the Protein S blood test to see if this is true, and then we go from there. If I actually have a deficiency, I will be placed on blood thinners for my next pregnancy and hope I carry to term. If there is no deficiency, I am back at square one trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with me!

This is so frustrating!! I can never get a clear-cut answer. I am tired of being poked and prodded, and coming up with no answer. I go back in January for the test and results. January should have been the month I would be bringing my first angel baby home, but here I sit still empty-handed.

Tomorrow B is going to look into foster care and adoption. We are not going to give up without a fight, but I am taking a beating emotionally. We will have our baby one way or another.