Sad...

This time of year is going to be a difficult one for me. I can feel it already. Some friends of B and I wanted to know if we wanted to go cut down our Christmas tree with them tomorrow. They were even willing to go next weekend if we were busy tomorrow. Any other time and circumstance I would have loved to, but this particular couple is expecting their first baby in March. What makes me sad is that it brings back all the memories of my 2nd pregnancy. I started having my second miscarriage at their house during the Presidential debates. We weren't there a good 20 minutes before I started bleeding. One week later I miscarried my little boy. It is still hard to face them knowing that L is still happily pregnant (she's having a little girl), and my son is no longer with me. To top it all off, my first EDD is approaching quickly (January 21st). I think I am going to need a drink after work.