A very inspirational video. It is a reminder that no matter what I go through, to never give up. If you give up, you can never achieve your goals.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZVfHoTROgQ
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
I don't understand People
I have been such a bad blogger lately. B and I had put TTC on hold, so I didn't feel like writing and wanted to ignore all the things that have been going on in that aspect. Now we are actively back to TTC. This is not the reason for this blog entry.
My day was going well yesterday. The bosses were out of the office. It was nice and peaceful. I even had a dentist appointment that went smoothly. That all changed when I called my mom for our daily chat.
Let me give you a little history. My cousin and his girlfriend just recently became parents to a little girl. My aunt wants to give them a small baby shower with just the family. That is the reason for the phone call to my mom.
So my aunt calls my mom to let her know they are planning a shower for this girl within the next few weeks, and to see if my mom would be interested in coming. Then my aunt asked whether or not to invite me. She stated, "Everything that she has been through, we didn't know if it would be a good idea to invite her."
Excuse me? Everything that I have been through? You don't know half of what I've been through. I had only told my family about the first loss which was over a year ago. She makes me feel like I'm some crazy nut case who can't handle being in the presence of babies or anything baby-related. Mind you, this is not the first time this has happened to me. My boss's wife didn't invite me to her baby shower back in July because she felt that she didn't want to put me through any heartache by being there. Since when have I been incompetent of making my own decisions? The last I checked I have a voice and know how to say "no" if I feel like I would be uncomfortable in certain situation. I am tired of people walking on eggshells when I am around. I am tired of being excluded from things and everyone making me feel like an outcast.
My day was going well yesterday. The bosses were out of the office. It was nice and peaceful. I even had a dentist appointment that went smoothly. That all changed when I called my mom for our daily chat.
Let me give you a little history. My cousin and his girlfriend just recently became parents to a little girl. My aunt wants to give them a small baby shower with just the family. That is the reason for the phone call to my mom.
So my aunt calls my mom to let her know they are planning a shower for this girl within the next few weeks, and to see if my mom would be interested in coming. Then my aunt asked whether or not to invite me. She stated, "Everything that she has been through, we didn't know if it would be a good idea to invite her."
Excuse me? Everything that I have been through? You don't know half of what I've been through. I had only told my family about the first loss which was over a year ago. She makes me feel like I'm some crazy nut case who can't handle being in the presence of babies or anything baby-related. Mind you, this is not the first time this has happened to me. My boss's wife didn't invite me to her baby shower back in July because she felt that she didn't want to put me through any heartache by being there. Since when have I been incompetent of making my own decisions? The last I checked I have a voice and know how to say "no" if I feel like I would be uncomfortable in certain situation. I am tired of people walking on eggshells when I am around. I am tired of being excluded from things and everyone making me feel like an outcast.
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