Thank You AF (Aunt Flow)!

Thanksgiving is always a time to be thankful for everyone you has touched your life in a special way. It is also a time to be thankful for the things we DO have, and not worry about the things we do not have. For me this year, Thanksgiving is also a time to be thankful for AF. She has finally arrived!! After nearly 40 days post m/c, she has finally showed up. This is a big step for my body getting back on a normal pattern so that B and I can give it a try again come January.

The road to AF has not been an easy one. This road was much different from the first one. More cramps, severe ovulation pains, sore boobs...for a minute I thought I was still pregnant. Now it is time to move forward with a new year and new possibilities. Bring it on 2009! It is baby-making time!

Protein S?

Some of my tests have come back from the RPL panel. Most are normal, but my doc mentioned something about a protein s deficiency. Protein S helps with the thinning of the blood to prevent blood clots from forming. It is a inherited gene, that if goes untreated during pregnancy, can lead to miscarriages. Doctor S wants to wait until ALL of the tests come back so that she can make a proper diagnosis, but this is what the issue is leaning towards with my test results. She also wants me to see my hematologist about the deficiency since I have sickle cell anemia as well. Hopefully this can answer a few questions as to why I am miscarrying with each pregnancy. Stay tuned...

Pathology Report is Back...

Had my doctor's appointment today. I don't know where to begin. The good thing is that my doctor wants to do a RPL (Repeat Pregnancy Loss) panel, which is what I wanted anyways. She said there is no use waiting for this to happen again, and put me through more heartache. It is best to get to the bottom of this since I had consecutive miscarriages. I have to not eat for 8-10 hours before taking the test. It is a simple blood tests that looks for many factors that can contribute to pregnancy loss. This made me feel much better when she suggested going ahead to do this. I am considering going Thursday morning for the test. The sooner, the better.

The bad thing...at least bad in my eyes, is the pathology report. My baby (it was a boy) was healthy. I had a baby boy. All the chromosomes were normal, and it was a healthy pregnancy. For some reason, my body decided it didn't want to be pregnant anymore and terminated the pregnancy. This is the reason for the tests. There is obviously something not right with my genetic makeup, blood, or body. I feel like it was my fault that my babies died. I haven't been able to stop crying. I don't know how many tests I will endure, but I am willing to do whatever it takes to have my baby.

Think before you speak!

Why are men so damn stupid?!?!?! Honestly, they never think before they speak. This morning I was going to warm my car up so that it wouldn't be too cold when I got inside. Mind you, I do this every morning since Old Man Winter decided to rear its ugly head. B decides to make the stupid comment, "Don't forget to open the garage before you start the cars." Excuse me? Like I don't know to open the garage door so I don't kill myself or my family. It's not like the first time he's made that comment. It makes me irate because his comment makes me feel like I am stupid or something. I don't remind you every time to open the garage before you start your car. Why must you feel you must remind me? Geez....I know I am from the city and never had a garage in the houses I grew up, but give me some credit that I have a little more common sense than you think I have. Okay, vent over.

You are in my prayers

Geez, how bad can this year get!! I just heard from a friend whom I haven't talked to in a few weeks. We used to work together and became great friends during those years. She just told me that she has cervical cancer. The doctor scraped her cervix and found some cancerous cells on it. She is currently taking all types of medication for it. She is hoping not to go through chemo...but who would want to do that unless it was a last resort. And through it all, she is more concerned about how I am doing...what an awesome friend!

The only good thing that has come out of this year is the election of Obama as President! Bring on 2009! Let's put 2008 behind us...